I'm back lol...
I really wish I had the money to do all the things I want to do, I really want to give Linda the life she should have, I want to be able to take care of my mum and dad, lindas family and our friends. Sadly my life never played out the way I thought it would. I'm not school smart , but I have always worked hard. Yet I still have no money and can't help out the people I love
I have have been called lazy and told I "just don't want to work" but thats not true !!! I'm just not willing to take the shit that most jobs throw at you. A boss should be willing to do the same shit as he/she expects that the staff will do. As a former boss I never asked anyone to do something that I would'nt do myself . I now work for someone that has no respect for the staff and no understanding of what they go through on a day to day basis. Most of the people I work with are awsome at the jobs they do, but never get the credit.
As I said in my last blog I really do love my life, I'm happy and with exeption of money and a job I like I have everything I want..I started "blogging" as a way to get some of the crap that is going through my head all the time out. I'm sure no one gives a shit about what I write, but it helps me. I may seem negative all the time and thats not how I want to come across. I am just so sick of all the crap. I know I'm not perfect and have never claimed to be...Yeah I smoke and drink too much I get bitchy, but thats who I am.
I'm a control freak, if I can't be in conrtrol I really don't know how to deal with shit....Right now it just feels like I'v lost control over everthing :( work, money, driving and that makes me feel useless. Then there is all this medical crap, not going to get any answers about that for another 6 weeks, YES I know poor D....it sounds like it's all about me and my shit. I know it effects everyone in my life, but I honestly don't know how to deal with crap.
I have 2 awesome familys that have been there for us and supported us, so I am really lucky. We always have food and Maui never goes without her C..lol I'm sure there not is many people that can say the same. and sitting here writing this has made me feel selfish.WOW when I sit and think about it I have an awesome life ( it just takes me awile to realise stuff).
D out :)
ps...I will be more possative in the future
me
Monday, 14 May 2012
Saturday, 5 May 2012
D's First blog
Well this is my first Blog so I'm sure it will read like a jumbled mess of nothing, and there will spelling and gramatical errors Oh thats me.
I would like to start off by saying I am happy, dispite a few medical issues I have an awesome life..I have the most awesome and understanding girlfriend in the world. I spent 15 years single thinking there was no one out there for me (women are intimidated by my amazing body and good looks). Then I met Linda who has changed my life in so many ways. I never thought I would live with someone, but now I could'nt live without her. She is the most positive, fun person I have ever met. My parents love her, probably more than they love me, but I like that. On the other side she has a great family. I was dreading meeting her kids, but once I had I found them to be awesome too. Her sister's, brothers and mum seem to have accepted me and welcomed me to there family, and that makes me feel sooo good. I rearly spoke to my parents before I met Linda, now we talk all the time and go over more often and thats all thanks to Linda.
I hope to soon have answers to my medical problems, not have answers is driving me nuts. I have always done pysical work and never had any problems, and now in the last 3 months I'v passed out at work twice (maybe I'm allergic to work lol) Then they take my drivers license away till I get answers and that does'nt fly with me. I love driving, and as quite as it's kept I hate Linda's driving...Oh crap she's going to read that. Just another example of great she is for driving me around...Good save D.
Work???? Well when I left the Chatham Capitol theatre I thought I'd left all the crap behind, I spent 11 stressed filled years dealing with incompetent managers and petty staff, but then I started working here and it seems that's the norm for any job (soooo sad) I just want to go to work do my job and go home for a nice cold beer :) all the crap between I don't need. God nows my mind is always going a mile a minute and I really don't and/or care about all the other crap.
Oh I forgot to mention that along with awesome Linda came Awesome Maui, I said I would never let a dog in my apt and for sure not on my furniture, but Maui has me wrapped around her little paw. I AM SO lucky to have Linda and Maui in my life :) :) :)
I would like to start off by saying I am happy, dispite a few medical issues I have an awesome life..I have the most awesome and understanding girlfriend in the world. I spent 15 years single thinking there was no one out there for me (women are intimidated by my amazing body and good looks). Then I met Linda who has changed my life in so many ways. I never thought I would live with someone, but now I could'nt live without her. She is the most positive, fun person I have ever met. My parents love her, probably more than they love me, but I like that. On the other side she has a great family. I was dreading meeting her kids, but once I had I found them to be awesome too. Her sister's, brothers and mum seem to have accepted me and welcomed me to there family, and that makes me feel sooo good. I rearly spoke to my parents before I met Linda, now we talk all the time and go over more often and thats all thanks to Linda.
I hope to soon have answers to my medical problems, not have answers is driving me nuts. I have always done pysical work and never had any problems, and now in the last 3 months I'v passed out at work twice (maybe I'm allergic to work lol) Then they take my drivers license away till I get answers and that does'nt fly with me. I love driving, and as quite as it's kept I hate Linda's driving...Oh crap she's going to read that. Just another example of great she is for driving me around...Good save D.
Work???? Well when I left the Chatham Capitol theatre I thought I'd left all the crap behind, I spent 11 stressed filled years dealing with incompetent managers and petty staff, but then I started working here and it seems that's the norm for any job (soooo sad) I just want to go to work do my job and go home for a nice cold beer :) all the crap between I don't need. God nows my mind is always going a mile a minute and I really don't and/or care about all the other crap.
Oh I forgot to mention that along with awesome Linda came Awesome Maui, I said I would never let a dog in my apt and for sure not on my furniture, but Maui has me wrapped around her little paw. I AM SO lucky to have Linda and Maui in my life :) :) :)
Well thats it for now I'LL BE BACK...............
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